give and take

everyone came and went already, it was was too fast and we got to do nice things like go to the white cliffs of dover and the natural history museum... now i only have 3 weeks left here and it feels very strange. i almost am dreading going home and seeing everyone... in a way i'd be ok with just staying here. i feel just that things have changed a lot since i left them and i don't know if i want to see certain people who have changed back at home. but besides that i don't want to leave the people i'm with here. it breaks my heart to think i might not see some of them again after the trip ends. i can't even imagine trading being here for going back to work in the little flower shop and driving around being bored all summer with no one to go out drinking and singing with and feeling like i'm living backwards.... i don't want to think about home. i don't want to think about getting back and instantly feeling bored and trapped, overheated and lonely in wilton with everyone gone the whole summer and nothing for me to do except work a few days a week and sit in my room. what a sad thought...
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